Consume Me

I learned to fear being forgotten, discarded, ignored

So I fought to become memorable, valuable, seen

I learned that to be “keep-able” I needed to provide

Something worth keeping

A body and mind made up of products, valuables, assets

But all I did was turn myself into something

Consumable

And consumables once consumed

Are…forgotten, discarded, ignored

Thrown away

I didn’t feel you consuming me

Until it was nearly too late

But you showed your cards too early

I saw the game you were playing

I removed my consumable self from you

Before you could play your hand

So I won’t be discarded this time

A small comfort

But I remain partially consumed

And the worst part is knowing that I offered myself up to you for just this purpose

How do I become whole again?

And do I even deserve wholeness?

*To Consume: 1. to eat or drink, 2. to use up resources, 3. to overwhelm with strong feelings, 4. to completely destroy